I don’t want to have you,
I just want what it is I cannot have,
I’ve always wanted more,
I cannot remember ever needing.
I only wish I could remember just what it was
I recall a moment when you defined me
I wasn’t sad
I was ignoring the truth
I only meant to chuckle inside and not a loud.
I knew I was always the vulnerable one
I should have never left you feeling afraid,
I could remember if I tried
but what would I gain
I wish you could see me before you know me.