Sitting in Silence
I’m not well,
is the message keeps generating in my mind,
I’m the one sits in class with a smile,
a joke, a certain way of allowing everyone around me
to feel ok, less drawn the anxiety
the human condition.
I’m the one
who is enduring a silence, his own, no one else,
a quiet that is letting the mind take over,
yet when someone tells me to get up and move,
I can’t do it, its overpowering mantra on my mind
I have this dog,
an animal sleeping nearby has no idea
where it is I am right now,
oh a couple of people do, but nothing serious,
just same old
Inside this silence I need everyone to know
oh so much I need you to know,
it isn’t you.
This is the me that is rather frightened by the reality
of how close my hypocrisy might render its hand.
I have this certain quiet that is pleading with my mind,
leave me alone.
I don’t know who to really call that would understand
and isn’t that the way it is supposed to work,
otherwise how would success ever be
I hear the clock ticking, it soothes the soul.