I’ve been writing here for around 7 years so it’s time to take stock in what I have produced. I used to be really driven by likes my poetry received, and when I only get a few I questioned its value. Was I writing garbage or not? For a long while I wrote about a dear friend, whom I spoke my most intimate feelings for, and then one day those words turned against me. I never felt like my words were bringing across what I wanted to say and I began to question my writing. Today, I have a comfort level with my words and I am not compelled to increase my likes, rather instead I want this to be a site where I can share my state of mind. In recent weeks I’ve written of despair but with a silver lining. I always believe in hope, and wish only to get that state of mind across in my work.
In the last three years my world has been turned upside down. I lost a marriage that ought to have been lost years ago, but the actual reality of the loss had a tremendous bearing upon my frame of mind. I retired from a career, and I also lost a dear friend. My writing entered some dark places and I often feared revealing too much about myself in my poetry. I felt lost and woeful and wondered how my words could possibly resonate with anyone. Then I made a decision.
I’ll seldom use keywords any more. I’m not as concerned about likes as I am being comfortable with my poetry. It’s hard for me to dive into the depths of my personal life but when I can it feels very fulfilling. I have a friend who all my writing is directed toward, and as she reads this I hope that gives her more confidence in the beauty and elegance she brings to our world.
So where will my writing go? I cannot say but I do say with confidence it will be written for those eyes that wish to connect and relate and resonate with my words.