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Posts tagged “pain

When It Seems Beyond Reach


Its favorite complaint

is not valid,

to imagine one’s pain,

is beyond another’s reach.

 

We are often more together

than what visibly

might be imagined,

while the construct of love remains.

 

To imagine solace

rather than feel it is easily

more attainable

than finding the truth.

 

Oh to be your guide,

to let your body fall in grace,

into my own,

so the comfort of love remain.

 

Oh to know a solution,

to understand a helpless nature,

in the human condition,

to show delight in love.

 

A simple remedy is plausible

only to the sightseer

who has not trekked the craggy

landscape of a chronic sojourn.

 

We seek peace in the shelter of our lives,

far beyond the tantalizing nature of pain.


When My Heart Aches


It is in the early morning, when waking,

I open my eyes, and see the invisible nature

of her memory, all I have

to hold onto,

is a quiet vision of when we could,

and now it fades,

I feel it in every waking moment,

without chance, I can experience loss,

time, people, change,

the world around me remains the same.

 

I want to hold back tears,

pretend it isn’t happening,

this constant,

this deep inside, festering truth,

I don’t want the challenge,

no longer wish to imagine I could be wrong,

I only want what my body feels,

the ache, the longing, the yearn,

that forever was simple,

and yet now in the moment,

smooth jazz only makes me want to cry.

 

I used to think about the amazing touch,

her sweet harmony with my utterances,

lips breeze and tease,

search in tongue twirl like a melody,

we would play this tune,

we would play this tune,

we would, God help me, play this tune …

did keep my passion alive.


A Wish to Disappear


Oh it’s true, not simply a mockery

we often appear to be more cagey

 

I’ve carried the wounds of childhood,

in order to find comfort in that I would.

 

This life I lead is sometimes a travesty

I hurt people to benefit me, simplicity.

 

A long time ago, she seemed to agree

yet still today I haven’t a place to be.

 

I live in a bubble some might decide

if pierced life would surely need subside.

 

Yet, somehow I maintain an integrity

one that surely lives on in subtlety.

 

She is the maker of my dreams I swoon

though it is me shatters imagery too soon.

 

I wonder about this state of mind tonight

is it really all that matters or that might.

 

I can feel my body is resolute with despair

I cannot move from this place to there.

 

I wish that I could feel a sense of response

to rather know the pain than cause a ponce

 

I’m a quiet man inside my lonely mind

there’s far too much memory to remind.

 

I hope that time might heal the pain I cause

for as much as time for me does give pause.

 

I love to know that my life here does exist

for the need to disappear I then might resist.


Under The Same Moon


She mentioned quiet,

he asked for more,

and then he realized they were together,

though he stepped further,

the waters crested and rather boldly,

he asked for more.

 

The distance between two points

can be miles beyond what we might hope for,

yet no matter how high the effort,

there seems always to be a dividing line,

a place where thoughts and notions and desires,

hopes,

still remain the same.

 

So, tonight she is over there,

and I’ve chosen to speak to her here.

 

I don’t know how we arrived in this place,

I just know there is a a certain

reality in our words,

and I wonder if it is me that suggests,

time is forever.


Finding My Way


I wanted to write about love tonight,

I still do, I’m struggling,

and I wonder sometimes along this journey,

if that is the process,

the goal, the outcome, the essential truth,

defines

love.

 

See tonight, I told someone my heart is in their hands,

I felt like we both knew,

we responded alike,

cried, sighed, tried laughter, it worked,

it always has,

laughter,

positive energy –

yet, tonight, I’m sad, my tears are dry,

I don’t understand,

how love can suddenly become

painful.

 

Oh, trust me, I’m a romantic fool,

I get loss, and the rabbit hole,

I just didn’t anticipate hanging this far off the edge.


The Chill


When while lonely,

what haven’t I known

a shuddering response to time

let me walk away

slow though

I wish to feel the moment,

each pulse of my world

envelop my pain.

I will shudder through

while all around me a blank slate

awaits a return,

a resilient body that for a time,

took a walk inside,

an internal mecca of soul-searching

beauty.

Be surprised when the one you know,

might anticipate a slow unravel

suddenly finds dignity

in a place where only shadows follow.

My blue night is the wind and breeze

she follows my lead with peace.


Letting Go


I’m afraid I have to

let you go,

I’ve wanted to for a long while now,

yet always, I felt I could,

I believed,

I might change you.

I was a fool

well, you already know

I just wish I had allowed you to tell me

long before I ever decided to figure this out.

I know in the morning I will cry,

we always seem to find tears when we decide

we are no longer going to feel pain.

That irony of not feeling when we cannot breathe.

I need to let you go,

I need –

if there might be some other way to say,

I just don’t love you anymore.

I don’t know if I ever did, I tried to think so,

imagine how hard I did try,

there were so many occasions,

yet now today it couldn’t seem more clear …

~

the long and enduring epitaph of a very selfish man

O I do not mean to confuse my endearment …